Dillema again

Is there a name for a situation like mine in which dillema in finding what to do in life keep on haunting me.

Last few weeks, after finishing with my Beauty course, I was in dillema of finding what to do while waiting for my teaching posting. So I went for an interview at one of the beauty salon and was not successful. Then me and my beauty class friends were talking about doing our own beauty salon business and yet there are too many challenges or risks that we are too afraid to face. Then I try to interview for tuition teacher and again was not successful because the vacancy has just been taken.

Few days after that, an idea just pop into my head like shooting star, out of no where, to do online business. Since I spend most of my time online, instead of wasting my time, why not I try to make money from my online surfing time. An opportunity arise after seeing an ad in mag. With the money my late father save for me, I was suddenly becoming brave, I do not think too much about any risk, I just wana move on, I'm too excited to make it come true. Then while waiting for the product, I have a very blissful life, no more ecruciating headache. I'm very sure of what I'm doing.

Then the pain come back again. My uni coursemates are getting their interview letter and I'm waiting for mine anxiously. As days past by without letter, I started to worry. Then I suddenly remember, could it be that I did not get my letter because I didn't fill up the new posting form? So I asked around, and it seem that those who have received their interview letter has filled the new form. In silent, there's a voice in my head telling me that, maybe I'm just destined to do business and not teaching. One part of me agree and wanted to forget about the teaching line, but the other part of me do not want to dissapoint my mom for being her second child to ditch the degree we have (my sis quit after a few days of housemanship at Sarawal General Hospital, she said she's just not interested in medical line since her 1st year in uni), now my sis will not be a doc and am I going to be the next who will not be a teacher when my degree is in teaching line?

There goes again, the dillema come and haunt me and giving me this excruciating headache again. If thing goes well with my business, I may expand as make up artist, beautician...I don't know..:(...I just can't see and can't visualize how and what I will do in future. I do not have goal, I just wana be successful in whatever I am doing right now.

Jom Heboh in Kuching

My friends know that I have been waiting for them to come for a long time d. Everytime when it's Sarawak turn, it's always being held somewhere else. Now it's in Kuching (Petra Jaya), I'm more than excited to go, sadly I don't have my cheekie gurls with me to share the fun day out.

So I when with my sisters and cousin, parking out car quite a distance away because it's along traffic jam towards the event area. The weather was extremely sunny. The number of food stalls open by the local people out numbered the booth open by the Jom Heboh crew. The place looks quite empty, and since the weather is so hot, most people choose to hide under or inside the booths than to move around. There are a few artists who are present but I'm not quite a fan of them, so I don't bother go gaga taking photo with them. I don't even know some of their name! Hehehe..Saw them in Tv, dramas and tv shows but sorry, can't remember their name. Hehehe...

Lucky my sister spot One Nation Emcee walking towards the Hotlink booth so we stop and wait for anything interesting, and yes in deed. They are going on stage next. I'm so happy even tho I'm not their big fan, but since I watch them compete in Gangstarz and it is one of me and cheekiez favourite tv show, so they remind me of them..miss u cheekiez...:)...I'm excited for them actually. Hahaha...Guess what?! I'm standing right in front of the stage and in the middle, really facing them. Such a good spot for photo taking..;)...But if they ask me question, I won't be able to answer. I don't even know the name of their 1st hitz. Ngehehe...

Leave the place around 7pm and when to Peach Garden for dinner.

Click on the picture and u will be able to see how long is the traffic jam

Walking at least 1km from where we park the car to the place

1st pit stop, Ducth Lady's booth

all sweating as the weather is extremely sunny and hot

One Nation Emcee in action..;)

For more pirctures, visit my photo album at Facebook..;)

Eworld crystals

After getting free pendant from them, I went to their website and browse for any interesting item that I can find for my friend's birthday gift. I bought bracelet with blue stone for her, bracelet with red stone(for myself) and a turquoise pendant for anyone's birthday. Hehehe..I wanted the mix stones in small bottle but they told me, for July promotion, they are giving it for free for every items that we've bought. Means I will have three mix stones pendant!! Yippeee!!!

Just got the package yesterday. Love them..;)

the 3 mix crystals in bottle pendant..I love it all!

turquoise pendant

My red bracelet

I did not open my friend's bracelet wrapper. So no photo for that..;)

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

I was one of those who purchase the ticket as soon as the "Ticket is on sale now" being displayed in the paper. I was more than excited to watch this as I've read the book and for this book, the Half-blood Prince, there are a lot of action and scenes that I can't wait to watch in movie.

But as expected (this happen all the time for the movies I've anticipated for), :(...disappointing.

When I went back home, I grab the book and read again. I found that the director is not very particular about certain detail. Did he even read the book?? There are some details, such as Narcissa hair suppose to be 'streaming' down her back and not tied in bun as shown in movie, the Unbreakable vows suppose to be performed with Severus and Narcissa kneeling and not standing as shown in movie. Another scene that I'm not familiar of when watching the movie is since when Harry is a flirty guy?? There is no cafe and the waitress scene in the book! Spoiler! :( So far, I had only read until Pro.Dumbledore went to Pro.Horace's house.

There's another scene where Harry had just come back from the cave with Dumbledore, he was not suppose to be hiding under the floor as shown, he was suppose to be under his Invisibility Clock! oh..Please don't tell me to enjoy the movie and stop comparing with the book..Tell u what, I can't! That's bcs I wanted to see what I've read came alive in movie, they can cut the scenes but shouldn't change the details. JK Rowling should say something before they start doing the movie..:(...

Anyhow, I will always love Harry Potter's series. I will just let the words create the movie in my head. That would be perfect enough as compare to what has been done in the movies.

I rate the accuracy or the similarity of the movie to the book as only 30% of the actual story. .or less.

In love? It's not enough to keep a marriage, study finds

This is the headline in Yahoo! news that caught my attention.

I agree that nowadays, love is not enough to keep a marriage. How can u live with a husband who are jobless? or kaki pukul, kaki botol, kaki judi, kaki bangku, oops! This not included. Hehehe...

Anyway, one of the paragraph mentioned that, "A couple's age, previous relationships and even whether they smoke or not are factors that influence whether their marriage is going to last, according to a study by researchers from the Australian National University."

Why do I highlight that smoke factor is because guys who smoke, especially if you are my bf, really drive me crazy. I will get so upset that I will not talk to him until I calm down. I try tolerate it and it's going good now. If he smokes during clubbing time, I can accept it, if he smokes during normal time, it's a big BOMB in my temper warehouse. Anyhow, smoking is still a big NO NO to me. Especially if you are the one who will spend ur whole life with me, living in the same house, sharing everything, then u r totally not allowed to smoke. Unless I'm being very very tolerant that I can control my anger, then u can have ur smoke. but still NOOOOO!!! I hate it!

Those who knew me know how I will be like when I'm angry. Never mess with the angry Carol. I'm like the Hulk, I will be so strong that I can break anything, lift and throw what ever is in front of me. I know I will regret it later cos I end up need to tidy everything.

U may read the article here.

Heidi and Spencer Pratt

At first, I was like Heidi and Spencer who??

I don't know them, but I'm going to talk about something about them after I watch the "I'm a celebrity...get me out of here!" reality show.

I'm not quite sure of which episode I'm watching but I guess it's the 1st episode in which they just arrived at the camp and Heidi started to complain and I think she must be surprised as she expecting 5 stars treatment is awaited them.

So both of them couldn't stand any longer. Can u imagine, not even a complete one day yet and they are already giving up. One of the reason Heidi can't stand to stay any longer not even to think of stay for a night, is not being able to have sex with her hubby, Spencer! Wow...they must be very active in bed. Hahahaha...

Then, at this one point where the other celebrities divided their stuff thinking that Heidi and Spender tried to leave the place. When they return and Torrie was mocking Heidi, Spencer went crazily mad! He was so protective towards his wife, Heidi that he just keep on yelling at them! Wow....so loving....I mean toward his wife.

so romantic...;)

Now only I understand what is the E! news talking about last few weeks about these 2 quiting the show. Damn! How slow the broadcast is to our TV..;(...sungguh ketinggalan zaman nya i.

I'm a Celebrity...Get Me Out of Here!

I super love this show! I love to watch the super pampered celebrities getting into the woods. I won't consider that as surviving tho, they have bed, they are given drinking water, they have clear river besides their camp, they have food to eat.

I love Janice Dickinson and Sanjaya Malakar, but I love Janice Dickinson more. Go superwoman!

I was excited and really hope to win the holiday trips. I was excited when the secret word is being displayed. I was excited to key in into the web. I register, I keyed in the secret word, then only I realized that the show is on Wednesday, 9pm and I'm watching it on sunday, a repeat show! ;(....

Then I think again, is the Wednesday show a live broadcast or repeat show. Can we have the chance to join and win the trip? mm..how I wish I could win.

free gift form eworldgift

I read about this website that are giving free item for their 1st 1000 members, only while stock last. Finally mine arrived after 1 week! I don't mind the waiting tho..;)..





So I've received an Aventurine gemstone pendant in which according to the leaflet that come together with the parcel, Aventurine's power is:

"to absorb electromagnetic smog and protects against environmental pollution. Taped to a cell phone, it acts as a protection against its emanations. This crystal defuses negative situations and turns them around. Aventurine reinforces leadership qualities and decisiveness. It promotes compassion and empathy and encourages perseverance. Aventurine benefits the thymus gland, connective tissue, and nervous system;it balances blood pressure and stimulates the metabolism, lowering cholestrol and preventign arteriosclerosis and heart attack."

to get urs, visit their website and register as member..;)
Their collection of crystal products are nive actually. For those who wants to buy gift for ur friend, u may try to search for some lovely crystal pendant in this website.

Twitter

Evryone is talking about twitter now. I'm as usual does not think of having one, but I come across to Mariah Carey's twitter from Yahoo! news and don't know how, I've create mine..mmm...

Multipurpose tiger-printed shawl

My mom bought this tiger-printed shawl from Sabah for me. They went to Sabah for the second time and I couldn't go with them because of my lectures.

I love this shawl which is the one and only shawl I have. The material is soooo soft. It's one of the must have item when I go travelling now.

bring it with me to Genting

as blanket for mid night movie with friend

as tudung

as tube dress wore with jeans

as skirt

as halter neck dress (I like!!)

To do or not to do

I spent half of my day in SGH (Sarawak General Hospital) visiting and 'lepaking' with my cousin, Valentina @ Girl2. She's going to have a major operation tomorrow, I mean today (9 july 09). She was constantly being told by the doc and nurses of the risks that she might has to face after the operation and at some point she wanted to cancel the operation. It is understandable tho cos it is a very big operation. I don't even dare to imagine her condition after the operation. All I can do is to pray that everything will when well.

May God be with her throughout the operation and may everything when well without any complication.

Anyway, my sis has resigned from her housemanship at SGH. I know everyone will think that "oh, so sayang she studied for 5 years d" but yeah, since she's totally not interested to be a doc, so up to her to decide. So today, she has a long sleep after days of sleepless days.

and I too in a "to do or not to do" situation. But whatever it is, I have to start implement whatever plan and idea I have in my head now. At least, I can see a result.

Paris Katherine Jackson heartbreaking speech

She's the next Angelina Jolie?

Well, when I said this, I'm pretty sure those who are aware of Hollywood news knows who I'm talking about, that is non other than Megan Fox.

I just watched Transformer 2 last night and yeah, the story is good but since I'm not a big fan of transformer, I just enjoy the movie as it is. I do not go gaga over the movie and talking about it for days and don't even think of coming back to watch the 2nd time.

Anyway, I'm about to talk about something from Caroline's perspective about something. Read on.

Something about the movie that somehow irritate me that is the so-called next Angelina Jolie (AJ). All I can say is, she's bullshit! What kind of action she did in the movie other than running with that big boobs? She's not talented in terms of acting but I can't deny that she has hot body. But that's all. u now what, I think she's the next Fasha Sandha. She got the look and she's totally ngegeh nak mampus. Cuba tangga dalam movie ya, nya tang control kacak jk bah. The only thing yang nya sama ngn AJ is bibir nya jak. But she's totally bullshit! Well, for those who know me, when I started to talk like this, means I really hate that person.

Dalam mag, nda alah2 jak padah, 'aku xmok org ingat aku sbgi sex symbol, ku mok org ingat aku sbb acting aku'. Camne lah org x ingat kau sbgi sex symbol mun asal dressing, mesti yg sexy2. bkn jeles tapi ku rasa bodo jak pa kata nya tek. mun nya xmok org ingat nya sbgi sex symbol, then do something about ur acting! ya, palak nya mok org ingat nya sbb acting nya. alu emotional aku. hahaha..p nang x suka lah aku ngan nya. Dpt tga kengegehan nya time nya giving out award mun kat mana2 award bah. time nya klaka, nya tang ngegeh jak n tang rasa diri jak lah paling kacak dlm dunia tok tek. cheh..nya lah ya. mun sapa2 yg baca tok rasa ku jeles ngn nya, dari ku jeles ngn nya, bgs ku jeles ngn AJ or nicole kidman kah..even lindsay lohan gik better actress than her. Damn she's so 'ke-fasha-sandh-an'!!

*terkeluar bhs swak ku sbb dah emosi glk tek nak. mun nak nganok org, kita harus guna bhs dikpun. wahahaha...sak nyaman gik asa mok nganok org, mok ada feel.