Dearly Missed :')

I was all okay this morning. Going to work as usual, keeping in mind today is the 8th anniversary of our beloved late father left us for good. I was in peace knowing that at least he was not in pain anymore.

But as the day passes throught, all the memories seems to float into my mind. Memory of him being with us, of him sending me off to matriculation. I still remember i hug him so tightly not wanting to let him go, but of cos he has to go and I was left in matriculation alone, starting my life as a boarding student.

I remember I cried so badly when I get my PMR result. I didn't get straight As as I wanted too. Feeling disapointed, I lock myself in the room until he came back from work and talk me out of the room. After completing F5, I wanted to do part time job but he insisted on me working with him. So I think that is  when I spent more time with him. Before getting my SPM result, he promised me he will buy me a handphone if I get straight As but I didn't. He didn't buy me a phone, but he gave me his Samsung which was rm800+ that time. A polyphonic flip phone. My 1st handphone! Weeeee

He was already ill when I enter the university, I would say one of his dream to see his children entering the uni like he did. He must be very happy but he's not feeling too well to send me for registration. I spent my semester break looking after him in the hospital. It's sad seeing him in pain. But he never complained. I didn't get to see him breath his last because I was in uni that time. On the day he was laid in the tomb, it finally hit me that I will never see him again.

In year 2011, I was diagnosed with ovarian cyst. On the day my aunty perform the crystal healing, suddenly she stops and tell me this 'your father said 'anang takut''. My eyes literally looking around wondering where he could be. His soul visited my aunty a few times and told us that even though he is not around anymore, but he is watching over us and tell us to just talk to him. He will listen though he can't do anything.

It breaks my heart that he was not there during my graduation and not there walking my down the aisle. But he will always be in my mind n in my prayer.

Daddy, you little grumpy girl is all grown up already. :)

Love,
Lolol.

Education for all? Think again.

I still remember the hot issue during my interview for my first posting back in 2009. It was about a girl, who has an excellent SPM result but was rejected to further her study to the public university for reason being a non-Bumiputera.

Recently, the same issue arises again. A student with 3.8 CGPA in her foundation year in University Malaya was rejected to pursue in medical course just because of her “foreign and Christian” name. How ridiculous it that? How can you reject an excellent student just because of their name? If name is the first most important qualification to further study, I guess I won’t have to be a teacher. We can all just make sure all parents get their child’s name right. There is no need for examination, no need for that stupid PBS, no need for SPM, just change your name.

Come to think of it, whose fault is it? Was it KPM? Or was it that particular person-in-charge? I don’t know. I just hope whoever is in charge of selecting the students, please, stop being racist. You are an adult, be smart. Which era you are living in? Why do you still have such a narrow mind? You are dealing with the future of the students as well as the future of the country. If you choose your own people without taking into account of the result and achievement of the students, then you are damaging the future of our country.

Because of this, excellent students left the country and further their study oversea. Graduated, found a job and migrated. We produced excellent students, and ‘donated’ their smart brain to the neighbouring countries and by then, then only our government started to beg them to come back and serve the country. But being rejected at you own country, would you even think of coming back?

The school I’m teaching in is famous of being at the bottom of the list of schools based on examination result. But why do we keep on being at the bottom no matter how hard we work to improve the students? One reason, our students are always missing in action and suddenly came back few years after not being in school. Regardless of the fact that the students did not take PMR examination, JPN still approved their application because of education policy where everyone deserves to have education. Being said so, then why did you reject that 3.8 CGPA student?

Why pushing the schools to produce excellent students when their name is all that matter? Please, STOP for the sack of our future. 

Read more on:

http://www.freemalaysiatoday.com/category/nation/2013/07/16/christian-name-reason-to-reject-top-student/

Nothing Last Forever

This thought come across me today, that nothing had actually last forever in this world.

Be it your beloved handphone, beloved person, beloved house or car, they don't last long. Sooner or later, they will be gone, either it just broke or worn out, or die.

Even peacefulness does not last.

What happen in Sabah recently is shocking for every Malaysian who cares. I do, and reading those news does break my heart, and send lots of worries wave to me.

Until now, nothing is certain yet. It is scary to think of what is actually happening while we are deeply asleep.

My uncle, somewhere in Tawau, text me on Monday. He slept with  his loaded gun by his side, ready to fight if his work place is attacked. In his text, he said "enti aku mati, masti bisi sida orang jai sama2 mati" which mean "if I die, those bad guys must die with me". Oh, I hope he don. Please be safe uncle.

Then, recently, the photos of the army and police hugging and kissing their family goodbye when leaving for Semporna is heart breaking. Photo of the Late ACP Michael Padel's funeral is saddening.
How many children will lost their father? How many man will lost their life fighting for the safety of the country?

From far, I can only pray. Pray that this war (is this a war anyway?), end soon. Please end.

Greatest Bday Ever!

The image of my bff knocking on the car window makes me scream in the car at the airport.

My best housemate, Michelle, keeps on mentioning her friends is coming to KK in Feb n asked me to tag along since it was my bday that very same weekend. Me, expecting nothing special for my bday is ok with the plan but something came up a few days before my bday that changes my mind but the BFF, Tia, manage to push me to go to KK with Michelle saying that she gave Michelle some money to buy me something. So I was like, "ok, so that is the surprise?".

So when we were in the car waiting for Michelle's 'friends at the airport, someone knocked on the car window, the moment I turn, I saw Tia and Nana!! For a split second I thought I was in Kuching! Well of course I scream as long as I could remember, laugh so hard, still can't believe it. With Tia leaving her little son in Kuching, and Nana all the way from KL (7 hours flight delayed), how can I not scream?

We had the best bday weekend ever. Day trip to Kundasang, eating fresh fruit in the car. Stop by at Fairy Hotel Restaurant and had vege and soups for lunch. Went back to KK and do some shopping and buy some stuffs for little bday party in the room.

We were all in our sleeping attire, eating mee in the cup, drinking hot Milo and orange juice, eating cakes and strawberry, brush our teeth then go to bed. As simple as that but I really enjoyed it. No alcohol so I don't have to worry about hangover the next morning. How great it was!

They left on the next day. So we drive back to Lawas. It was great! Love my friends!

The BFF fly all the way from KL and KCH.

Mdm. Tia with Pineapple Fried Rice

Nana with her Fried Rice

The famous Rumah Terbalik

Supporter of breast feeding :-) Yes her baby is not even one year old.

Dairy Farm in Kundasang.

Jalan-jalan di Jesselton Point

Time to say goodbye ;-)

FLY OH FLY

I can finally actually feel, IT'S YEAR END HOLIDAY!!!! Packed my stuff, clean the house, making sure I don't forget anything. Wuuuhhuuuu!!! So so super happy! But...almost every year end holiday, I will need to crack my head to think of how do I go back home. By land? NO NO! (so far, I manage to avoid driving back to Kch, that is SOOO far man!). By air, mm...from Lawas (have to fly 2 times, suitable if I bring Lilo back, cost more), from Miri (have to drive for more than 3 hours to Miri facing with Q at the ferry and immigration and where do I put my car later on), from KK (do I drive my own car, if I do where do I park my car. If by bus, what if my flight is the next morning, so I will be needing a hotel and taxi, n I can't bring Lilo back, so have to board her which cost me RM10 per day). Now, do u understand why sometime I choose to just stay in Lawas during school holiday except for year end holiday (for it is a 2 months holiday!).

But this time, thank you to my dear friend, Julia, who are willing to take me in as her guest for tonight and letting me park my car at her house throughout the holiday. Thank u thank u so so much. Oh ya, m flying from KK because Lilo is in Kch already. ;-).

Happy holiday everyone!!!! Yipppeeeee!!!

Gonna let the Sally be released for school holiday! Ok, Sally, come out!!

Instagram addict

I'm a talkactive person in real life so I kinda have not much idea to post for my blog already. or maybe I'm too busy enjoying my life that i don't have much time to face my blog anymore? Hahaha..

anyway, I'm currently so in love with instagram. Now i kinda blog about my life through photos n no more texting n typing in blog. I miss talking about smtg in my blog. huhuhuhu....do find me in instagram Benedictacjay.

My life is incomplete without posting a picture in IG. I can post a few pictures just in a few minutes. Sometime just some old photos I found in my hp, or just some photo of the day. But mostly is about my life.

My current 'project' is to trim my tummy. Been doing some simple abs workout tho sometime on and off but so far, tummy is not too bulgy. No flat abs yet but will try my best to not letting it went out of control. A few months ago, have not been watching what I eat. So tummy grew bigger and looks like preggy belly. I'm a bit upset because some jeans are getting tighter and dresses are getting fitter. But so far, jeans get a little loose, dresses can be worn without tummy bulging out. A little success there. ;-) My target is to lose weight from 53kg (heaviest ever) to 48kg (my best weight ever!) I have a gold necklace as a reward. ;-)

Hope to do more posting soon!

Sereni and Shentel's Fever

3 Christmas Special Mini Block Party Headband for sisters, Nude Pink Block Party for mom and Red+Navy Charlotte for me

I know Charlotte was not in my shopping list, but I try it on at RPS at Green Height and it fits well so I bought it. :)

Christmas Lagi :-)

 On the 26th Dec, it's my turn to help Cynthia at her house for the Christmas Open House. She cooks super yummy food and I ate non-stop the whole day! Hahaha...Daun Paku Pakis goreng belacan, who can resist this dish! It's still crunchy and fresh but is cooked. Plus, Soup Ayam Tempoyak! Yuuuummmmmy!! Itik masak kicap, ayam kari, terung sambal ikan bilis! Wah!! Sedap giler!!

 

 

Sempat lagi makan linut (Sagu)