Progress of my PTA

went to resourse room with risma to check out how does our senior analyze their data.

oh my! i think mine is so not enuf data, and most crucial is my article is not strong enuf to support my research, and i don have enuf article to support the whole study. aiyoyo...suddenly i can feel the stress and tense is creeping into my life at this point of time...

now i understand why everyone keeps on saying final sem is tough. evn tho we have 3 subjects only but the rest of the time is left for u to do ur pta. if sambil lewa, u will end up crying over ur pta. hope i wil not tho.

Birthday gifts

softtoy from ayu, CD from hubby

i love both!! ;)..i love soft toys, and i have always wanted to buy britney's circus but it's too expensive tho...and i almost bought it that day but was stop by him. dear..too obvious u wana buy for me..hehehe...but tx ya....muuuuuuah...oh ya, it's my 1st original CD that i have. i use to buy cassettes only cos i don have cd player. now play in comp while online..;)..oh i love it!

the birthday party girls..in mask..as hot as ever..

gmbr kek ku xda..huhu...dah hbs kena ngap

My 23rd Bday

After the night party held by my cheekiez, we went for bday outing on 24th feb night, i.e. my bday night.

we went to Hornbil steambot, have meal then move on to karaoke at Dai-Chi..i was the last one to leave the centre cos i'm paying the payment at the counter so i didn't know that something is happening outside. it's something none of my business but ya..it's a bad ending of the day, i mean quite a dramatic incident. Hope she's fine tho.

then, on the way back, the car temperature increase abnormally, it's almost reaching the red bar but luckily we r reaching unimas gate already, i was worried that the engine might blown up! huhu...gosh..this car is really tooooooo old...i had just send for servicing wic cost me rm1900++..now a new prob again?? pokai lah me if like this...;(...

anyway, this outing was fun bcs it's my 1st time celebrating my bday with friends, not just some party held at home, but had actually went out, in groups..wooohooo..i'm loving it!

tx to: cheekiez (chee, zatul, risma, julia, ayu), hubby, niza, jaq, pei chin, aimi, mai, mahathir, ros, shaun, izat.

the cheekiez

steambot..makan2 time

Posting

I edit my posting form today and decided i will put Sarawak and Labuan. I can only fill in the form, God wil decide where i wil go.

Thinking of him

I dream of him last night. But i don really remember how and what was the dream about. I just remember something like he came back from somewhere, get into the car, at passenger seat and started to smoke. He never smoke in front of me so that's kinda weird for me. but watever it is, i just miss him so much, wish i could see him again even tho i know i couldn't and never will b able to meet him again. May his soul rest in peace.

a little mark

i went to smk penrissen no.1 to collect data for my fyp. however, i only manage to interview 1 of the respondent while the other 1 i will have to wait til next week.

when i was walking to my car after i'm done, 1 of my students greet me..;)..she said ol of them ( my students of Dahlia class) miss me..;)..wat an honour. i feel glad that i have leave a mark in their school life. i might not leave a deep impact in their learning but at least if they miss me, means i m someone to them..;)

ya..i miss them too. they are my first students and i'm pretty sure that my future students might not be having the same good attitude as them. ooo...can't imagine having to face bitchy students and those students who think that they don't need us, teachers, to teach them.
watever it is, i'm stil thinking hard of wic state i will put in my posting form, Sarawak? Sabah? Labuan? or penang?

1. Sarawak: cos that's wer i live. hope to get the one nearest to my house. hahaha..
2. Sabah: opting for a bit of adventure and a little away from home. but since i'm not a risk taker and adventurous type, so i'm kinda scared that i will be placed away from my frieds. cos having friends around me are stress reliever. i need them.
3. Labuan: i've been there and it's one of the place away from home.
4. Penang: since my hubby is west malaysian and he's going back to taiping after finish studying, so thought wana be wit him over there. but penang is a big city, the students bound to be more daring and have least respect towards teachers. especially newly posted teachers.

i'm not so sure of wer to go mainly bcs i really have no planning for my future, i do not have something that i really wanted to achieve, i do not have a deep passion in something. i love teaching but the thought of becoming a teacher still scare me. it's not the studets that are scared of me, but i'm scared of the students now. hahaha..

i'm so use of living in comfort zone. so a little risk is scary to me. i really do not know which state sud i apply to. any advise?

entertained by mandarin

hehe..i was printing some doc of students who come to my room, just helping chee2 for her printing business while she's not at home.

so this 2 chinese girls were chatting in mandarin. i didn't make a sound as i enjoyed their conversation which they expect me to not understand a word.

these are some of the things that they talk about:

1. "I think this was not the room that i went to print my stuff last sem. i stil remember the table was here (while pointing at the other side of the wall). i think it's the next room lah (while walking out to check out the next room). Ya! it is next room. i stil remember this mirror (while pointing at the mirror on the wall)"
   
2. "why this room got 2 beds ar? i think she (which refer to me) must have move it from the next room (while walking out checking the other rooms). i think she put her stuff here(point at one of the bed) and sleep at this one(while pointing to the other one)." the way she speaks like she knew it very well, like she's very confident of what she says.
   
3. "Ya!! i think i knew her. she was Jia Jia fren who did her make up. (??did i?? which jia jia??). that is a make up box (while pointing at my make up box), i m very sure of that. very expensive ooo..." then they started to talk about their coming dinner, wat to wear, how to do their hair, blablabla..
   
4. "i think she's selling products. the catalogue outside is hers." (?? hah?? wat makes u think it's mine?? it's not mine lah...and wat makes u think i'm selling product? i did not display anything in my room..funny..;))
   
5. "hey! look at the things, so cute...(pointing at my "yes man").
   hey! her roses are real lah...look! it's dying" (hahaha..ya..it is dying...)
   
6. "she's very fair. she (i.e me..;p) is beautiful hoh.."(hah! this one i like..;p..tq for the compliment..;))
   
7. "She's Catholic. look, her book got Mother Mary's pic" (that's my rosary prayer book)
   
8. "tell her to print 2 copy" (i m listening to u dear, u r talking right nex to me..hehehe..orite! 2 copies for u..;))

very very entertaining. i was smiling enjoying their conversation without saying a word and pretent i don understand what they are talking about. that was fun!

my killer heels is here!!

oh my! i din expect it to arrive so sooooon. i expect 1 month. i went over to fac to check for the parcel. my legs felt so weak..wit my heart thumping so fast. "will it fit my feet?" "does it looks good?" "can i walk in them?" these are just some of the questions playing in my head while i drive to fac..this is the 1st thing i ever bought tru internet..so i m nervous.

park in front of the main entrance to fac, i went over to the counter. having frequently receiving parcel for my Digi stuff, the staff knew my name and just smile as i step in. i saw her take it out..oh my!! i feel like my heart is exploding!! it's here, in my hand!! i try to not showing my silly smile in front of her tho...hahaha...

i jump into the car, place it on passenger seat. oh baby..i wana tear u off and show me the content but sabar....

my baby stil wrap nicely..;)

drive as fast but as safely as i could, park as fast and as nicely as i could. run as fast as i could to my room. get the scissor..snip snip snip...oh my..i'm about to see it...huhuhu...it's here it's here!!

taadaaaaaaaaa!!!!! my oh bondage with zippers!

killer heels i bought from clothesbucket.blogspot.com

now time to put it on...can it fit me?...it looks kinda big and spacious.

ooo..it fit!!!

hehehe....don't mind bout my ugly looking legs. they have been working so hard that i din't spare time to take care of them.

tx clothesbucket! ;)

Lucky?

i'm lucky? nope..think it's more to having God's blessing that i manage to get ol my things smoothly dealt. dealing with admin, any kind of admin is my greatest fear, kinda fobia too. i'm going to smk penrissen no.1 today to get the school approval for me and my friends to conduct our study aka final year project. i was relieved that the principal is not around so i will be dealing with the pk aka senior assistant. u know wat he said? he said:"we act on letter, as long as u have letter, we will give u full cooperation". so me and risma give him the letter from fac and he arrange the teachers and students that can be involved with our study. wah....nice2..actually i hope to meet some of my former students, kinda miss them but didn't saw any of them.

next pit stop is smk sg.maong. and again, i was lucky that the principal is not in.;)..so i approached the pk and one of the teachers happen to recognize me as the ex-student of the school. she even remember my name. ;) she help me to do 'brief' introduction about myself to the pk. "she's the daughter of Pn.Tomin, ajk of pibg". "she's a former student here". wah wah wah..puji2...hehehe..it's good u know, i feel like her message is "she is 'someone', treat her well"..hehehe...so once again, everything is settle smoothly. i met some of my former teachers. kinda miss the school. hehehe..

i feel so relieved..it feels like a big and heavy burden have been taken off me. i arrange all my words last night b4 bed, afraid that i might said the wrong things and spoil the opportunity to conduct our study there.

anyway, thank God for answering my prayer.

God bless u all.

Peace!

emotional day

i dono wats got onto me...but i miss my late father. i was in class, listening to my music player, and i don rmbr wic song but it makes me think of him. i feel like crying right at that moment.

try to get myself busy, but the thought of him keeps coming back and continue to touch my emotion. On vday, while having meal with my dear, this father who is bringing his kids for lunch remind me of my late father. he used to bring us for meal especially on weekend.

so nw i m studying for my midterm paper tomorrow while this emotion keeps on haunting me. i really miss him.

i happen to know how to play the guitar for Slipped Away by avril lavigne and this songs somehow reminds me of him again. huhu..

i realise that i found it difficult for me to sing while strumming the gtar. so i didn't manage to record me playing the song cos i keep on spoil it with my singing.

anyway, the lyric is:

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you,
oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same

Ooooh
Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
Oooooh

I hope you can hear me
cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone,
now you are gone
There you go,
there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back

Now you are gone,
now you are gone
There you go,
there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you

me_cute

~finally i manage to figure out what is wrong with my laptop. i hide hidden file so i was not aware of the hidden me_cute file. it's in jpeg file. i'm using avast and can't detect it. i only realize it when i put my pendrive into my bf's laptop.

~i sud have realize it when the lab demo said something like "me_cute again" when the comp in the lab detected it. i thought i got it from that lab so i delete it n didn't expect it to be in the pendrive again.

~anyway, as usual, our 'magic-hand-super-talented" chee2 come to rescue. she search from internet, click here n there, woooaaaalah! it's gone. at least i think it's gone cos i got my normal startup d. previously i will only see my wallpaper without the icon after i log into the computer. at least now i got it back d.

~another thing is, i think i'm allergic to Ducth lady milk, i think so, cos since last week, everytime after i drink 1 packet of it, i will get stomach ache afterward. i thought it's bcs of the combination of the cereal and the milk but that's normal what...

~so as seen in my last post, i bought 1 big bottle of Dutch lady's choco milk and causes my stomach to feel unwell until now. it get so gassy and i'm sorry my frens, i have to 'let-it-go'. i feel like as if there is a gas generetor in my tummy keep on generating air n gases that cause me to go to toilet and non-stop farting..but it doesn't smell..;p..hehehe...i wil buy 1 more small packet of the same milk and see what will happen. if the same thing happen then i hv to stop taking it.

Craving for CHOCO

getting so stress up doing my programming asgm especially with my laptop making things harder. it keep on shutting down for no reason. virus kah? can't reformat it now cos i need it to complete my last minute works..hehehe...

suddenly i'm craving for choco so i drive out to the nearest petronas and bought a whole bunch of it.

just some of it

Nyam Nyam!!

"Celup dalam cokelat, nyam nyam, cecah dengan crispy, nyam nyam..kami suka nyam nyam, nyam nyam dan crispy, nyam nyam!" hahaha..i can still rmbr the song.

In less than 5minutes,

i'm done wit it..;p

anyway, at least i'm feeling better now cos having Nyam Nyam brings back the childhood memory, feels like a kid while finishing my Nyam Nyam..;)

Celcom vs Digi

I have been using Celcom broadband for quite sometime and recently the connection is very bad. The line is connected for less than 1 minute than disconnect and then can't be connected again. So today i decided to use my Digi EDGE to online. Not only the line is stable, i can even upload my photo now!! :)...i can upload photos using Celcom 3G but recently i can't and it really frustrating.

Well, Digi always the smarter choice.

P/S: If u r using Digi D'campus, after RM30 usage, u wil get free internet access for the rest of the month! So njoy..;)

BM or BI

what is ur opinion on the issue of teaching science and mathematics in English?

for me, the government sud not keep on changing the policy especially without much analyzing of possible consequences. Government had spend so much on sending teachers for training and now they wanna change the medium to BM again?

the medium issue is acceptable if they claim that the students are not getting good result and so forth. but i read in newspaper, those menteri and whoever they are holding 'sepanduk' saying "Jgn hapuskan bahasa Ibunda"..duh..izit consider "hapuskan bahasa ibunda" when we learn extra language?? there is no limit in learning and getting new knowledge especially English. since it is international language, students who master English can go further and besides, most of the books use in Uni is in English. Don they ever think of this point then? Learning English doesn't mean we are forgetting BM (is BM bahasa ibunda of every races?? no right? it's more of National language and sud be Bahasa Malaysia and not Bahasa Melayu)

we stil speak BM cos it's a national language, language that connect every Malaysian and why worry about losing this language? we stil learn BM in BM (of cos..lol..), Sejarah, Geografi, Moral, etc...

the minister sud worry about big issue such as country development rather than this issue which have been discussed for years...

anyway, this is just my opinion. ;)..